Start of Tir buffer: Sun Aug 17 03:12:10 2003 Session Ident: Tir (ginji@pcp416674pcs.martnz01.ga.comcast.net) ...and as I say that, "TWINS" comes on my playlist ;) * Ginji grins well they start wanting to kill each other, end up... and then...walk away from it changed, at least in some way I mean, at least, from Ginji's angle, he's finally found someone who wants to come to see him, amano ginji I'm not sure what ban got out of it esp. since he still sys at the end that if he goes back maybe raitei will kill him (which is kind of a sad way for it to end *sniff*) there can always be more written. When he goes back... * Ginji nods... I want to ;) so...what to call it * Ban hmms. Any songs that come to mind? ;) * Ginji likes the duality and symmetry aspects... oh hmm I cna only honestly remember having one song running in my ehad while we were playing it, and that's because of all the references to eyes, esp. enar the end (you know that song you put on the sydney and hardin cd for me, I listen to that song a lot altely) * Ginji shrugs but I know that's one of your songs for them eh, some of the muses share songs... ;) heh well it was just... paul's comment about them finding the missing peice in each other? and the whole aprt about the light the heat I am complete * Ginji shrugs * Ginji kicks jwpeper....load damnit ...jwpeper? * Ban hmms... missing pieces... falling into place... * Ginji nods... I don't understand mail I need this music to come fast but I don't want to pay a bazillion dolalrs and there's about ten options and some of them seem quick but not expensive but I fele like...I should be apying more iof it's gonna come that quick liek it says UPS ground 1 day is only $6 but then UPS air 2 days is $8 why?? why do you pay elss for it to come quicker? are they trying to fool me???? even fedex ground is about 6, and fedex 2 day air is 8 -_- I'm so confused ;___; * Ban has no idea why is ground 1 day and air 2 days but ground is cheaper? hey, cosplay.com's galleries are working again, so I can show you this: http://images.cosplay.com/showphoto.php?photo=70440 or does "1 day" mean it takes an extra day???? heh heh hmmm well I know fedex is pretty quick, and I know the office will sign for it if I'm not here.... hey I cna put up pics now too.. yep ;) but! TITLE! >:O umm umm umm././// ;_; heheh * Ginji doesn't know * Ban kind of likes the idea of "falling into place" I get all this feelings, but nothing coalesces into a good title * Ginji nods yeah :/ me too or could always be terribly original and call it "Serendipity" it's a title you kinda have to think about like I said, it's ginji's first awakening in a long time that someone out there might appreciate ginji more than raitei heh * Ginji shakes her head...that's not the right tone what I need to know is what ban got out of this, how it changed him...I think that's elss evident to me anwyays and that's why I'm ahving trouble naming it what Ban got out of it was... for once he actually felt something other than anger and pain and stuff... first time since Yamato, I believe and it completely threw him for a loop that he could still feel or do anything other than kill hmmmm * Ginji shakes her head... I think falling into place would be the next scenario, actually this was was too much of an awakening, of dark being light and light being dark, of seeing that you don't have to be what everyone else thinks you are, if someone else in the world can make you feel you're not that * Ban nods... I mean, each of them amde the other feel like they were someone different than what everyone else saw them as (that's what I was getting at with the eyes thing too, anyways...) * Ban nods... thing is, this is largely a battle story, so don't want to get too mushy ;) AU or not.... seeing... is what made the tow of tghem stay togetehr... seeing something in each other, and consequently, in themselves, that no one else ever really saw yup I know. even if mushiness is the end result, a mushy-sounding title would be really misleading... so... hm could always pull out the Beatles titles... "Looking Through You" ;) I still think the missing peice idea fits better than the falling into place for this bit-- heeeeey I *like* that ! * Ginji grins no, really heh... okay then...? not that I've ever ehard the song but that's exactly the right idea for each of them * Ban doesn't think she put it on that mix tape, yeah... so, we have a title? yes heheh, okay then... so shall I upload to ff.net? yes Okay... summary, which is nearly as hard as title often enough ;) lol I was thinking something like... "Ban is looking for a fight. Raitei is looking at an invader. Both of them wind up seeing something else entirely." * Ginji nods... keeping with the title not giving too much away ;) heh and now that we're talking again, I'm actually getting work done too. heheh * Ginji jsut planned 1st garde for the week, now adding curricuklum guide numebrs before I draw up the actual elsson plans so are we gonna play tonight at all? or upload cosplay pics? whatever... ;) http://www.fanfiction.net/read.php?storyid=1480293 here we go... you want to link in the comm? I just posted fan art ;) :DDDD me? umm...okay :) Words: 9916 :O hehehehehehehe (I downlaoded the song too) which? looking throguh you ah, right y'know, we need matching ban/ginji icons like we have vik/flik heh, true they don't have handy little symbols, though, like Viktor and Flik umm snake and lightning but yeah, I guess you're right.... well, yeah.. hmm I realy can't stand that goo girl everythign she posts makes me want to slap her around I'm not sure why sooo....have we decided what to name our site yet? uplaoding this remidned me that our dual account emails and address is all out of date now O:) feel like playing? or fiddling with pics? * Ban shrugs... if there's something to play... or I could help you with pics... or both and yeah, we really do need a site :P both, all, everything! * Ginji bounces ;) well, do you still not feel like being ban? (posted btw) * Ban shrugs... not really... I still feel really weird ok well... who do you feel like being? or do you want to jsut play with pics? * Ban shrugs.. * Ginji is still trying to figure out how to get around cosplay.com -_- the only two areas you really need to know are the forums and galleries... * Ginji is looking at all of your pics :) heh * Ban is debating eating something... I feel all weird and stuff ;_; heh, I don't even need to uplaod pics...you've got all of ours up not all of them I only did some with both of us, and the ones that were just me.. * Ginji shrugs... and none of the Flik/Viktor ones from Christmas... and you've got Terra and Tinkerbell and Aeris pics too, right? ;) ah, well....yeah but I want to have ban and ginji pics and tir and gremio pics too but ti seems silly to put them up if you have already.. now that TNC is down, I don't even know if I saved our wildwood pics anywhere...our "album" is gone I saved our pics... and I didn't know you were going to get an account there, or I'd have held back :P * Ginji shakes her head... it's ok. I signed up for an account right after I saw you had one, I was jsut too busy to ever do anything with it. * Ginji may jsut put up her favorites anyways, even if a few are duplicates, ebcause I want to be able to point people to that archive myself from my site eventually * Ginji is scanning a couple of the old aerith pics.... so I have to make thumbnails of everytying or does it do that automatically? automatically heh...neat... and yes, put up any dupes you want - people do it all the time ;) so what do I actually need to do? really? oh that makes me feel better :) someone finds a pic someone took of them at a con, and goes "Hey, that's me! Can I put it in my gallery?" lol all you have to do is go to the "upload images" link and from there, honestly, it's really self-explanatory just fill out the form, choose your file how big should I make the pics? * Ban shrugs I think they're auto-resized if they're over 640 on a side and I think the filesize has to be under 20k * Ban tends to keep things around 300x400 (or vice versa) unless there's some detail... ... I'm not sure I can do this. Looking at all of our pics from last Christmas is making me feel... ...okay, don't then. :/ * Ginji smiles... * Ginji shrugs... s'ok, I guess, just makes me msis you. anyways I looked and I can't find the wildwood pics anywhere on my harddrive I've got the xmas ones tho okay, I can upload the wildwood ones somewhere we really do need our webspace again ;) http://www.kekkai.org/andrea/temp/ww/ uploading them all there, it'll take a sec thanks :) not a problem... * Ginji has to save the pics under "low" to make them small enoguh in filesize all finished uploading.. yeah, I tended to make mine a little smaller in resolution, then save them on level 6 I need to get dressed up and take pics with my sword sometime * Ban nods :D * Ginji is puzzled...I've only got a pic that's about 300 by 300 and yet it wont' svae as anytung smaller than 25 is it being saved in jpg mode? yeah er hey, wait, never mind about the file size limit I just looked at the script * Ginji laughs I think they turned off the size limit I know they had one before, because a couple of ours from ACen didn't go through the first time and I had to mess with settings :P they even had a whole tutorial about how to minimize file size while still staying in good quality * Ban hmms... now that I've had ice cream I feel much less groggy... hey I got the ww pics, but where are the shoujocon oens that go with them? oops I thought those were in the same directory... I must have stuck them elsewhere. Jsec aha, yep, found them... uploading now I forgot those were on two different cameras ;) ok well I uploaded one pic to test but I really can't sit here resizing and uplaoding right now, I need to get these lesson plans done * Ban nods * Ban looks for pic... yay :D heh hey the girl we met at acen playing yuber jsut put her pic up yeah, she's all over the boards ;) it was freaky, I started poking around there to see if I saw anyone I knew, and recognized her from one of the first threads I looked at... and the guy dressed as Solid Snake, I saw him around a lot too.. and the girl that had the really awesome Paine outfit ahh utena pics * Ban grins. You're already getting views... I am? * Ban hmms... bored... and church in 8 hours. This bites, since I just started to sort of wake up :P yeah, four people have already clicked on your pic yeah me too (of course, one of them was me ;)) * Ginji chuckles ...still wanna play? yes family won't be ehre til 11/12 playing what? ;) I can sleep til 10:30ish easily what do you want to play...? you're the one that ahs to go to church ;) every week I just get up at 8, after 3-5 hours sleep, go to church, then come home and go back to sleep while everyone else is at the later service and it's nice and quiet and I'm in a Gremio sort of mood I think, after all the writing for him I've done lately * Ginji nods... eee comment on the story~~ I just noticed that myself... clicked on the link just now link? comment in gbcomm... are there comments on ff.net? * Ginji got the gbcomm reply in email ohok no, we can't get ff.net comments yet it's only been an hour ^^^ yeah, it's not even showing up on the section yet so unless someone caught it in Just In ...heheh, and it's a pretty long fic. so are we going to play or not? sure want to play gremio and tir? well... see, I do, but I'm not really sure what we should set them up doing... ;) hmmmm well.... tir isn't seeming so cheerful tonight not sure why where are they? what are they doing? how is progress on the house? last I knew, they'd gotten the interior cleaned out, and had bedrolls laid out... They need to knock out a wall before they can add on a kitchen or bedroom * Ginji nods... I bet it looks a lot better now :) so how's gremio doing? He's been all right... sometimes not so well at night, but they keep busy during the day. now that the excitement of finding a apcle has apssed, tir's gone back to thinking about what happeend before the festival - the stuff with the two runes, souleater possessing him, and gremio's being bitten * Ginji nods heh, yeah, much the same with tir so obviously we ought to play night ;) cause dya ahs been busy cleaning and doing.... * Ban nods inside their new house? yeah unless one of them wandered outside.. * Ginji shakes her head...tir's inside, I'm pretty sure I think he was jsut lying awake thinking hmmm you want to start? or want me to...? I'm not sure where we should start... should Gremio also have one of his freaked out moments, or what... hmmmm well, souleater's been pretty quiet the past few days so has the beast rune, actually odd. I'm not sure what Gremio was all upset about last time though... maybe we could just find out :/ tir could jsut tell gremio that he can't sleep ebcause it's too quiet ;) last time? yeah, I was getting weird freaked out vibes from him but wasn't sure what the deal was like last night or something hmm..... ok, so how do we start then? -_- should I just start? is gremio awake? depends - do we want to have Tir see Gremio wake up, or wake up/roll over/whatever and notice Gremio's awake? well tir insists he needs to tell gremio that it's too quiet ;) heh... okay... so he can start ;) * Tir sighs restlessly, rolling onto his side to pillow his arm in one hand. After sepnding so many nights outdoors or in slightly noisy inns, the new house is far too quiet for him to sleep. "Gremio?" he whispers softly, not wanting to wake him if he's already asleep. * Gremio opens his eyes, but doesn't otherwise move from where he's curled on his side, facing away from Tir. "...Yes?" * Tir sighs again, clutching the light blanket to his chest a little more. "I....I can't sleep..." * Gremio nods slightly. "...Are you too warm?" * Tir shakes his head, and reaches out a hand as if he wants to touch Gremio, but is suddenly uncertain. "No, I just...I... it's too quiet... " * Gremio nods again. "I see... it is, isn't it?" * Tir sighs for a third time, as if that sound will be enough to break up the silence. "I'm.... I guess I'm just not used to it... I'm sorry if I woke you..." * Gremio shakes his head quickly. "No, no... I wasn't sleeping." He considers for a moment, trying to think of something that would break up the silence. * Tir finally does reach out a hand to touch Gremio's back lightly. "As silly as it might sound, I almsot have the urge to ask you to tell me a story or sing me a song like you sued to long ago..." * Gremio can't quite manage to smile, even as he reassures Tir. "No, not silly... well, perhaps a bit odd," he admits. "But... I don't mind. Although I... I'm not sure how good a story I could tell... or if my voice would hold out..." * Tir sighs and rolls over himself, putting his abck to Gremio. "Nevermind, it's fine... I know I'm being silly. I didn't mean to bother you...I'll try and get to sleep." (woo 4 1st garde plans done and 1 8th grade....think I'm gonna wait and see if that music shows up or my handouts get copied before planning anything more than monday's elsson....) * Gremio feels a rush of guilt at the words, and starts to turn over. "You didn't bother me... I promise. And... and I could try..." (heh...) * Tir shrugs, drawing his blankets up to his face, but he doesn't turn back to look at Gremio. "It's okay, I'm not a child after all... I'm just feeling very restless." * Gremio sighs. "As am I... would you just want to talk, then? Or go for some air...?" * Tir turns back to Gremio and shakes his head. "I don't know... I'm tired, but... what do you feel like doing?" * Gremio chuckles softly, staring up at the ceiling. "I wonder how specifically you would want me to answer that question," he mutters. "I suppose 'not lying awake' would be a close approximation." * Tir laughs softly as well, now leaning his head on his elbow. "Yes, I do very much agree...but I think I'm too tired to get up." * Gremio nods vaguely, just staring into space. "But too awake to sleep..." * Tir nods and sighs. "Do you...want to talk?" * Gremio hesitates for a moment. "I don't know... I think I've already talked too much..." * Tir gives him a puzzled look. "What do you mean?" * Gremio lowers his gaze slightly. "The other night... when I had too much to drink..." * Tir looks just as confused and shakes his head. "I...uh... I'm really not sure what you mean, gremio... if anything, I thought I had said too much with my telling you in the public square that I wanted to hold you or something of the sort." * Gremio widens his eyes. "Y... you did? Oh, I don't even remember that..." * Tir laughs nervously and hopes that Gremio can't see his blush in the darkness. "Uh...yes... I did, I remember, just a bit... and remember that as we were dancing, you didn't seem to mind too much. Really, I can't recall us talking a whole lot about anything once we were away from the clothing stands." * Gremio squints up at the ceiling again, confused. "...Oh. Well... never mind then, nothing to worry about. And don't worry - I don't imagine that you could have embarrassed me even if I'd been wholly sober." * Tir frowns slightly and shakes his head. "gremio... I was honest with you about what I remember. If you rememebr something beyond that, don't you think it's fair to share it with me?" * Gremio shakes his head. "I don't remember much of anything at all, honestly... I remember talking with you about your father, and I thought I said too much... but if you don't remember, maybe I didn't." * Tir sits up now, looking almsot offended. "But... either way... if it's bothering you... I want to know." * Gremio finally looks over at him, startled by the movement. "Oh, Tir... nothing about YOUR father..." * Tir shakes his head quickly. "That isn't what I meant... I just... I want to know if something's on your mind." * Gremio hesitates, not certain what to say. "I... don't know. There are things that are no longer relevant... that are better off forgotten. And it will only be harder to put behind if I must pass them on to others... right?" * Tir wraps his arms around his knees as he draws them up to his chin and shrugs. "I think burdens are easier to carry when shared. Memories aren't something you can just erase." * Gremio sighs heavily, turning onto his side to curl up himself. "Fair enough... or they'd have been erased already. I wonder, will I go through the rest of eternity hearing these memories...?" * Tir turns to look over at Gremio, looking decidedly small with his arms wrapped around himself. "If it's going to make you miserable, then don't... I just thought..." * Gremio looks up at him, uncertain. "I don't know if it would or not. There are.... things... that I've never talked about with anyone." * Tir bites his lip and shrugs, letting his arms drop and crawling back into his blankets, a lengthy pause before replying softly. "Well I suppose I can't be insulted then, that you'd consider trusting anyone else more than me, if you haven't." * Gremio smiles sadly and nods. "I just... I don't know... I was raised not to say such things... which is why I feared I'd said something after drinking. But I... I don't mean to hide things, Tir. It's all... just memories." * Tir pulls the blanket over his head with a sigh, hiding his face and muffling his voice slightly. "I suppose I also have memories I've neevr shared with you...not ebcause I was trying to hide anything... well, maybe at the time I was, but certainly not anymore." * Gremio hesitates for a moment, then reaches out to him from beneath his own blankets. "I'm sorry... if you want to know anything, Tir, I will answer. I just... I don't know..." He lets his voice trail off helplessly. "Maybe it's hurt me to keep it all inside... but I don't know any other way to live." * Tir does not appear from under his blanket. "Ted told me once that things are always changing, and we either change with them or we fade away. I rememebr laughing when he told me that, because it seemed like things never would change then. He and I, you and Father, Cleo and Pahn... leaves, snow, sun, holidays, schooling... but I understand now. I understand so much more. We've only survived because we've adapted, Gremio." * Gremio nods. "...Then... do you want to know what I would have said? What I wanted to say, but apparently did not? Is that it?" * Tir peeks out from under his blanket just a little. "I only want to knwo if you want to tell me." * Gremio sighs. "If I am to tell anyone, it should be you... Not only do I know you would understand, but... who else would I go to, with anything, above you?" * Tir smiles slightly, reaching out for Gremio's hand. "I won't argue with that... but I'll also understand if you'd simply rather keep it to yourself. I'm sure I'd feel just as awkward if you were to start asking me about my memories of Ted... or Kasumi... or even my father before you were part of my life." (Hmm.. he might actually talk... but if he does, it might balloon up into something long-winded. And I'm getting tired... should I just make him shut up for now? :P) (I'm kinda tired too...but it's a pity cause I am curious to ehar what he'd say... and also Tir seems kind of upset now =P ) (hee hee I have been uploading pics) (so I noticed. ;) Well, we could always start and pause if he starts getting long-winded... or pause here and have him talk tomorrow...) (let's pause... cause then I won't lsoe the train of thought... ) okay... heh End of Tir buffer Sun Aug 17 03:12:10 2003